your so perfect sometimes. i can hardly stand it.hahahahaha

text from me: well goodnight i guess, sleep well.

call from him: aw shit i fell asleep on you , im so sorry baby...shit.

me:it's okay you were tired go back to sleep jesus.

Him: are you sure ? are you okay? are you really sure ?

i'm not sure what I want anymore...If I want there to be a us even ..Im not sure if i've been talking my way in this entire time, or this is my last attempt of talking my way out...my confusion is not from lack of love..thats all that i know for certain.

If we wont burn together ,ill burn alone.

that was my facebook status this day last year..i cant remember if this post had something to do with you or not. probably .
it's funny at times i feel like everything ive said or done in the past two years has bits and pieces of you in it.
your inside me now and i want to crawl out of my own goddamn skin most nights because of it.

my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.

Maybe I should give up, give in,
give up trying to be thin,
give up and turn into my mother,
god knows I love her.

and I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware.
I would never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand
and I can't do it again.

you give me the greatest sleep.

I don't know anything anymore...and days like today i become aware what one hasn't said or the things people neglect to mention are the things that climb inside our chest and slowly destroy us and murder our forever's.