There was this man once who told me there was this sadness about me, he could see it in my eyes and hear it in my laugh and i loved that man because he saw it and in his sick way he saw it as beauty..and he said i was strong but i wasn't and im not.
so sir where are you? explain to me why for the entire day ive been on the verge of tears ..you were always so good at telling me about myself and seeing the parts of me..i thought of you all day and how i could tell you all the fucked up things swirling in my head........for the most part i would like to tell you that ..most days i dont know how im going to go on and that everyday i get out of bed i surprise myself, and most of the time when i laugh its like a triumph because i dont know how a person carries around the feeling i have in my chest and can find it in them to laugh..don't get me wrong i have something now that i have never had before..someone who loves me and i him. but im still sad and i dont know why and this post is point less but yea.
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